I look at her and wonder......do you think about where she is?
I listen to her speak and wonder.....does she sound at all like you?
I breath in deep to smell her and wonder......do you remember what she smelled like? Did you even stop to smell her for those first few moments?
I touch her and wonder.....do you long to feel her and have her put her arms around your neck?
I gaze into her eyes and wonder.....are yours as dark as hers?
I hear her laugh and wonder.....do you ever long to hear that sound?
I lay down beside her to rest and wonder....when you lay down and close your eyes, do you see her face?
I wonder.....if you knew her now as this strong, intelligent, beautiful, funny, thriving 2 1/2 year old.....could you still give her up? I wonder......how could you?
I think I will be haunted by these thoughts for as long as I am her mother.....I wonder, will you?
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Oh, no words. Just sadness. How can there be unwanted children in the world? (((Hugs)))
LOVE this post, Rachelle.
I loved this Rachelle. You put an adoptive mom's thoughts into words so well.
I have to agree with the other comments. I love it & have wondered these things too. It breaks my heart to think what their birth moms are missing & what they are feeling, but SO very thankful God gave us these beautiful children. I pray for these moms (& dads, too), for peace for them. To somehow let them know how much their baby's are loved & cherished!
Kleenex please.
So true - and spoken so eloquently. Byron was on a flight last week and saw a flight attendant who he said looked just like Kenzie. He said it gave him a glimpse into the future and got him thinking exactly what you said here. Not a day goes by that I look at either Kenzie or John and wonder the same things. Their birthdays are the hardest for me - I always wonder how deep their birth moms sadness is, especially on that day, and pray that God hold them close.
The birth mothers surely sacrificed and that love gave us a baby girl that we adore.I wish we could meet them and thank them for this amazing gift. For now I thank God for putting a desire in my heart to reach out to a orphan. It has truly blessed us.
Wow.
I too, share your wonder........
More thoughts on this - I'll just have to email (or call!) you.
Blessings friend ~
This made me cry! What do these women go through? I am reading your book.
Love you and thank you for taking the boys!
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